MIA

I have been missing in action for almost two weeks now.
I have not been feeling well, and have been going to a lot of doctors appointments trying to figure out the cause of my distress. I am not pleased with the medical community right now - especially my primary care doctor and the idiot specialists they send me to.
On top of other medical concerns that shall remain nameless right now, a Urologist told me last week that I have kidney disease caused by previous bouts of strep throat. When he first said it I thought to myself, what an asshole. That is the dumbest thing I have ever heard. Apparently it is a real condition... as found in the link I shared. I was referred to a Nephrologist (kidney specialist) in order to pursue this diagnosis further.

I'm really kind of pissed off about it all.

Suffice to say that I have not been behaving dietarily.

Is cleaning and yardwork exercise?

I spend the other day scrubbing my kitchen all day. I have not even finished yet, but it's in the plans. I have to tackle cupboards, cabinets, the laundry area and continue to pick up as clutter magically reappears. I think it would have gone better and further if I didn't spend almost an hour organizing my daughters Craft Bucket From Hell. That was an event in itself.

Yesterday, I brought the kids outside to swim in the wading pool and use the sprinkler. I decided, on a whim, to start weeding and trimming overgrown trees and vines. I probably worked for close to an hour? I rent, and my landlord soooo should be doing this stuff. He already refuses to do snow removal. I will have to take a picture of the driveway. I live in a 3 family house, and there is no front yard. It is 5 parking spaces across and pretty long to the street. It is a sonofabitch to shovel, even with only a few inches down.

In other news, college classes begin again on Tuesday Sept 3. This semester I am taking English Comp 1 (I slacked off the first time I took it and recieved an incomplete) Basic Math (it is a developmental course that I have to take before I can start pre-algebra and algebra - I have NO math skills) and Complementary Health Modalities. I was originally signed up for Nutrition but they erased my schedule because I had not recieved confirmation of financial aid yet. Pisser. So, Nutrition of course was FULL. Now I am taking the other course, but I am wicked happy about it because I am already interested in naturopathy and homeopathy. Bonus. Life is about to be even more stressful, I am afraid.

I have to focus on working out more because I have much better mental clarity and focus when I am consistently working out. Even if it is just a 20 minute workout. I have to.

Bleh

I really don't like my layout and theme.

Cripes. This is SO going to be one of those days. I moved my bed yesterday, to a really commanding position if I do say so myself, and that is all I did. My room is in complete ruins, and I have a Urologist appointment this morning, cramps from a period I shouldn't have (Depo shot) and then I have to bring my mother to view her car.

I had a wicked migraine yesterday, and my Neurologist suggested that I go to the ER and have it "solved" i.e. inject me in the arm with some mind numbing drug. My mother was on her way over to babysit the twins for me. In order to get here, my mother has to drive through a rotary (for those of you who haven't been to New England to see these stupid road concoctions, they are smaller versions of the round-abouts you see in Europe. It is one big circle with several roads meeting there, and everyone is SUPPOSED to take turns in the circle. It never happens that way). My mother had almost successfully left the rotary when this 22 year old dingaling, waiting at one of the stop signs, didn't see her coming because an SUV was on her left, and she decided to pull out into traffic to get a better look. CRUNCH. My mother slammed into her driver side door, snapped the tire off of the car, and had a fun ambulance ride on a back board. She is ok - whiplash, which I am positive is ten million times worse today considering she refused to wear her neck brace. I have to go there today and bring her to view her car. She seems to think it is driveable... but the thing was towed, and she T-boned someone. I'm thinking it's not driveable. The radiator atleast must be gone.

So..... being the good daughter I am.... I am going to take pictures and post them for the Internets. Too bad it won't qualify for this week's theme for Photo Hunt - happy.

And so it begins...

Today is day one of reinlisting my faith in myself, and the Nutrisystem program. I'm determined to follow this through until August 30th, and see what my results are. If I am happy with the diet (last time I had some major GI upset) then I will consider re-ordering. If not, I will devise a plan according to what I can afford. I will teach myself good eating habits and food choices. I will fucking do this.

I went from 220lbs to 160lbs in about 10 months, without Nutrisystem. I used frozen Weight Watchers meals, salads, and the FIRM workout series. I know I can get rid of the last 30lbs. 60lbs was a lot to lose. I know I have the ability.

So, with all of that said... here goes my journey.