Starting weight: 167 (YAY back out of "obese" category!!!)
Lifestyle change: Eat Clean Diet
Things I Have Learned Today
1. Oatmeal that you cook on the stove instead of the microwave is pretty nasty. Oatmeal without any added flavoring and sugars is REALLY nasty.
2. It doesn't matter how much fresh fruit you add, regular oatmeal still sucks the big one.
3. I still don't like tuna fish, or any fish for that matter, no matter how pretty it looks on a bed of leafy greens.
4. I made my first protein shake today, and I have no idea what I am doing.
5. Protein shakes make me want to crawl into a hole and die.
I have several hours left in the day, and one more new appliance left to try out. Yesterday I bought a personal sized blender (for disgusting protein shakes) and a rice cooker/vegetable steamer. I wonder what mayhem I will cause with the steamer.
Food For Today
Breakfast:
1 cup cooked oatmeal with 1 tbsp each wheat germ and flaxseed on top
1/2 cup mixed berries on oatmeal (strawberries, blueberries, raspberries)
4 scrambled egg whites
500 mL H2O
Snack:
1 medium apple
1 tbsp almond butter
500 mL H2O
Lunch:
1 can packed in water tuna
1.5 cups salad greens
1 cup mixed veggies (tomato, cucumber, green pepper, carrot and pickle)
Still working on that 500 mL H2O
Snack:
Protein shake *barf*
1 scoup whey protein powder, 1 cup skim milk, 3 ice cubes, one banana sliced, 1 tbsp each wheat germ, flaxseed and bee pollen)
Dinner:
To be determined... thinking chicken, steamed veggie of some sort and maybe brown rice? I might not try and make two different things in the new steamer. Too much room for error.
The best thing about today - starting on a new adventure, have a little more energy, I like my new appliances, the GNC guy talked to me like an educated adult instead of a moronic child and I got the card for a woman who is a Reiki master. BONUS. I may have to take one of her classes soon. I also got some essential oils, and they smell yummy. :o)
Things I Have Learned Today
Grocery Store
First off, spank you very much ChunksBlog for noticing my little baby blog and linking to it. I appreciate the nod. No, this is not a fat acceptance blog. I don't know if I could ever just accept the way I look - mostly because the world is an evil, ugly place when you are overweight. After a lifetime of hearing how less-than I am because of my size, it is hard to love thyself. It is unfortunate, but true. I see what I am doing as more a self-improvement project rather than a quest to be skinny. Skinny won't fix the problems in my life. The journey I document here is more of a health quest than anything. I admire those of you out there who have learned to love yourself no matter how you look. That kind of self love is quality... it's REAL. Size 2 jeans does not equal self love. Taking care of your body to the best of your ability does. I could love myself all the way to the farmers market and back, but I may never be a size 2. I'm just looking for the moment where I feel comfortable in my own body.
I just returned home from the grocery store. I had exactly $100 to spend today, and I'm fairly pissed off about the results. I followed the suggestion of sticking to the perimeter of the store, because that is where the healthies foods are located. Well, fuck. That's where all the expensive stuff is too. My father used to say, "You can't have caviar on a hot dog budget." I was feeling that today, I tell ya.
First off, fruits and vegetables - EXPENSIVE. I either have to pay out the ass for higher quality, longer lasting produce... or go to the local produce stand and pay cheap prices for produce that spoils in just a day or two. I can't go shopping 3-4 times a week just to stay on top of rotting veggies. I also can't afford to buy fresh at the chain stores all the time. What's a girl to do?
The majority of the food residing in the middle aisles of the store is crap. Convenience foods. Snacks. Meals-in-a-box. CHEAP. I am a single mom with twin 5-year-olds. I can only afford so much, and then I have to pick and choose things from there that my kids won't turn their noses up at. Thankfully one twin appreciates the glory that is fresh salad. As long as she has her Ranch dressing, she will eat her salad. The other twin... not so much. She thinks chicken nuggets, macaroni and cheese, potpie and milk with chocolate syrup in it are the four main food groups. She is very picky. It is a nightmare going to the grocery store because I end up spending so much time arguing with myself in the aisles about whether the kids will eat something, and whether I can stomach feeding it to them.
I am finding it hard to stay focused on healthy choices when I look into my purse and notice that, hey, I.have.no.money. I go shopping with purpose - buy the kids the foods they will eat, and if there is any money left over... find something for yourself. Usually, I end up grabbing frozen Weight Watchers or Lean Cuisine meals. In 2004 I went on a diet, and consumed mainly frozen "diet" meals and salads. Sure, I lost 60lbs but it did nothing to teach me how to make better choices. I could easily lean back on that same diet again and probably lose more weight, but what will I achieve? Weight loss that is destined to come back.
I think I need to find someone to do the shopping for me. All it does is make me irritated.
