The most amazing thing.

Yeah, I know. Not suposed to take weight loss pills because *cough cough* they just don't work. Well, something in this pill that I am taking is working because my appetite is decreased, and I have lost several pounds now without exercising. Hmmmm. What's up with THAT?!?

I started taking VPX Meltdown about a week ago, and my starting weight was 179. I am 171 this morning. It's a strange and wonderful thing. I have not been jittery or "caffiened out" like other pills I have taken. It's pretty nice. I am starting this morning to couple it with the load of SlimFast drinks in my fridge to see how far I can go. I am going to add 3 days of exercise this week now that I am over the respiratory infection from hell. Yay, I can speak without coughing!!! ***happy dance***

So, I have one HUGE upcoming event to lose this weight for. March 28th is my court date with my ex to increase the child support. He left us in the middle of the night in June 2006, and has been living the single life in Florida since then. He has popped in and out of our lives twice since then... each time promising to the children a reconciliation and relocation to Florida to "be a family again". Both times, I found out the hard way that he was lying about it all... and totally crushing the kids. He has gone long periods of time without calling (once was 6 months, and now he hasn't called since September) so I am sure you can imagine how my 5 yr olds feel. The last time he was calling us, he was bragging about a raise (he works for his parents) and went on and on and on about qualifying for a $35,000 loan for a new Volkswagen car. Nice, right? But he couldn't send any extra cash for school clothes, didn't send any birthday presents for the girls in September, and didn't even call or send anything for Christmas. Total prick. That's ok - I worked my ass off to provide what they needed. It just makes him look like a complete asshole.

Anyways. So, I am assuming that he will be present for this hearing - and I want to look fabulous. Smokin hot. Not so he will want me, but because it will give me more confidence. I need that high self esteem so that I can march in there and keep my chin up. I know losing weight is not the only thing that will help me to achieve this - I have been seeing a counselor and we will start working on this in the next few weeks. But, truly.... I want to look smokin hot. SMOKIN.