Day Five, Phase One

Today was a messed up day schedule-wise, but I stuck with the diet and everything works out well. My daughter woke up this morning and had a fever of 104.8 and we had to make a run to the pediatrician. They say she has the flu, but I am not 100% on that. She doesn't have the intestinal distress associated with the flu. But thankfully she doesn't have strep throat or an ear infection - two things that I got chronically as a child, and often as an adult. So... we're doing a little better I think.

Breakfast: Did not have - was at doctors.
Snack: banana
Lunch: Cabbage Soup - It was really hard to sit at the table and eat lunch with my kids. They were eating peanut butter and jelly.. and one of them was talking to me and breathing peanut butter breath all over me lol... it smelled good, and that sounds really disgusting now that I wrote that down LOL
Snack: Yogurt
Dinner: Left over Hoppin John (did not finish all, there was about a cup) steamed cauliflower with spices and a few squirts of I Cant Believe Its Not Butter Spray, and steamed asparagus with spices on top.
Snack: One crappy Oatmeal Cookie and a few Sweet Potato Fries.

On an experimental note - I cooked up a batch of the Phase 1 oatmeal cookies and sweet potato fries. I was trying to cook ahead because sometimes I don't always have time to cook something so I opt out of having it. Let's just say... I must have done something wrong with those oatmeal cookies. I used the recipe that's on the Fat Smash site and man... it was awful. Possibly it could be because I used this oatmeal I bought back when I was going to try clean eating - it is Old Wessex 5 grain cereal - oats, rye, triticale(?), barley, and golden flax. Crap... now that I look at it... I think I screwed up the Phase One because of this oatmeal. CRAP CRAP CRAP. That's ok I suppose... I'm NOT eating any more of those cookies anyways.

I just tried a bite of the sweet potato fries and they are decent - they for some reason got kind of burnt on the outside - not crispy... just mushy and burned LOL. Oh well. Trial and error. It's fun to experiment though.

I feel really good today. I have to say that in all honesty, after the doctors appointment, I really wanted to stop at McDonalds or Dunkin Donuts and get something for breakfast. I didn't, which is a huge accomplishment for me... but I just hate those cravings. It's not that often that I can talk myself out of the drive through. Fast food is definitly my nemesis. Particulary McDonalds and Burger King. I don't know why... because frankly the food is disgusting and horrible for you. But hell... if I am going to be honest, I might as well just admit it. The Dollar Menu kills me. I overdo it BIG TIME when I eat that stuff. I do the McDonalds thing a LOT when I am stressed. Sometimes several days in a row. How embarrasing is that to admit it??? Ugh. I am just glad I didn't cave today. I really wanted to. I just came home, ate my Cabbage Soup and that was the end of it.

I wrote up a workout schedule for the next four weeks. I am starting on Monday. I would like to get in the habit of working out in the morning before the kids get up. I know that I will have a hard time with this, but hell... if I can stick with this diet for this long and not give up... I CAN work out in the morning. Plus, it will prevent me from making excuses later in the day. I'm real good about making excuses. I do think I should consult a few more fitness magazines, and rework the schedule a little. I know I need a decent amount of cardio... but strength training really helped me before. I want to make sure I am burning off the layer of fat above my muscles so I don't bulk up instead of slim down.

I tell ya... I am feeling really good. I do look forward to getting some meat back in my diet, but I am not totally broken hearted that it is gone right now. The main cravings I've had have been for sugary things like those stupid Oreo Cakesters I bought for the kids. ROAR. Silly, stupid little things like that. So... I have fruit or veggies instead. No big deal, right now. I'm more iterested in finally losing this weight once and for all. I want to get back to where I was before when I was so successful in this journey. I got as low as 147... which I hadn't been for YEARS... and I felt like a million bucks. I wore sleeveless tops and looked people in the eye. I miss that. I want that feeling back again. I can do this.